I remember thinking, what could be so special about this place when I'm going to be covered in sweat and mosquito bites by the time we get there.
And then I remember the peninsula opening up all around, like day break in the afternoon, the blue water so clear we could see crabs scurrying on boulders five feet below the surface. I remember wading in the water with you and eating lunch on the shore with three other couples that showed up in kayaks and canoes, and you and I laughing under our breath because we were both thinking about sex in the water and how embarrassing that might have been because those kayaks and canoes came out of nowhere.
It's impossible for me to write to you without acknowledging the pain I caused you. But you were the one who opened up the world, dragging me kicking and screaming toward everything I ever wanted. You were the one who started me on this spiritual journey that changed everything about me except the appearance of my face and my goofball laugh.
I am so happy you are happy. And I'm so happy to have followed you for as long as I could, and most of all for your love and for your leading me as far through my darkness as you did.