May 19, 2010

Here

It has been a long sleep. I feel the arthritis in my hands. My eyes are blurry from centuries of hibernation. There is much work to be done today. But you are here, next to me. You fit so nicely into the crook of my shoulder. I cannot imagine my mornings without your smell, without the length of your flush body.

There is so much work to be done. I am late. But this is a nice place, a very nice place, the space between the dream world and this slave world, tasting both, the good of the dreams, the good of this world, you.

I am not moving. I am closing my eyes. We are floating. I am staying here, for as long as I can. I am done sleeping. I am coming awake. But I will awaken slowly, keeping at bay the anxieties that will make me rush through my bathroom routine and skip breakfast. As long as I can, I will stay here.

15 comments:

Xcrush said...

Who cares about the work when you are laying next to the one you love! Don't sleep thru life...LOVE THRU LIFE! this is so very intimate...I love it!

Lori said...

Stay. ☺

Alexandra Grabbe said...

These love letters are like calligraphy, each one so exquisite. "Severely abbreviated bathroom routine" jarred me though. I was trying to figure out whether you did this on purpose. Maybe you don't need the first two words?

Ed Pilolla said...

you are so right alexandra. you know, i originally didn't have 'severely abbreviated' at all. i added it at the last moment, giving in to my little boys inside me who wanted desperately to have some fun, even crack a lame joke. it's out, as of now. very thankful for your insights!

Teacher Mommy said...

Been there, done that, on a regular basis. So much harder to leave that bed when there's a loved one in it. This captures that moment very well!

wendryn said...

Ah, yes. Those are the mornings that make for a very good day.

Xcrush said...

"You fit so nicely in the crook of my shoulder. I cannot imagine my mornings without your smell" screams of masculinity and appreciation for this woman. Ed!! you are awesome!

Tori said...

Beautiful a always. :)

Kathy said...

Ed,

What a wonderful blog! I finally got a chance to stop by and really savor your writing. Loving the letters, can't wait to read the book. Plus you've got me wanting to write poetry ;) Alas, if only I could...

Kathy

Ed Pilolla said...

thanks so much!
@xcrush, masculinity, huh? i shouldn't mention i was watching espn on the bedroom tv, should i? just joking. your love is nourishing, as it was 14 years ago when we saw each other everyday.
@teachermommy, this is a moment from deep in my past, and i woke up this week and totally had a flashback, to the point i nearly reached over to feel for my former lover. rebuilding the moment was fun.

Ed Pilolla said...

@kathy,
thanks so much for stopping by! so glad you liked what you saw. want to know what a geek i am? i have convinced myself it's not poetry if i put it in paragraph form. ha!

thinkingtoohard said...

You deserve that moment, babe. You were the one who slayed the dragon.
Intimate and authentic. Perfect.

Natasha Rogue said...

Between this dream world and this slave world. Love it.

And btw. Read the response in your last post. You're sweet <3

You appreciating my work means a lot to me too.

Lucy said...

Ed, I am not sur ehow your found me, but I am glad you did. This peice gives me goosebumps. Thank you.

Ed Pilolla said...

@lucy, thanks! you left a lovely comment on my bent is beautiful piece in indieink. i'm glad i found your blog.