The thing making you struggle in this square world happens to be that big heart of yours. That's the thing causing you problems with everyone who claims to know better.
This world isn't built for lively hearts of the sort you have. God kissed you alright and that's a blessing, for sure. But it's also a curse because we live in a world with both a sun and moon. And a divine gift has, correspondingly, a divine moon shadow.
Struggle is always gonna be a part of success in this here earthly plane.
You get out of work, burst into the world like a pink sunflower, empty your pockets for the marginalized and what have you got left but empty pockets?
I think you're finally ready to hear something: You are no ordinary special. You are a pivital piece of this universe and a pivital piece of our world as it transitions, finally, out of the dark ages. Your heart was crafted by the very High Powers that created me. When the time is right, you will ascend to your rightful position in this sun-moon world. I will see to it.
I see you smirking. Doubter. Good for you! You've experienced enough disappointment in your life to remain skeptical at my words. You may have that flower-power heart but you're no fool. So just pay attention and you'll see. I've lived many, many lifetimes (as you have) and we cannot fail to be who we are. It's yet another lifetime finding my way to you.