June 22, 2010

Become


This lover speaks different. This lover feels different. This lover sounds different. This lover loves different.

And why?

The master says it is because I am different.

A man sees the world as he sees himself.

The universe may give you a gift, but it is not a gift unless you accept it.

If you must perform an interpretive dance in the early morning sunlight to allow yourself the privilege of unwrapping something dazzling, do the dance.

And become.

Gifts have no expiration dates, only the names and faces change.

Especially yours.

Become different.

Become worthy.

49 comments:

Hear Mum Roar said...

An excellent sentiment to start the day on!

French Fancy said...

Each time I read one of your poems there is always one line that jumps out at me and I wish I had written it. This time it was *do the dance, darling.*.

Jayne said...

I love the idea of performing an interpretive dance in the early morning sunlight! How lovely. Thank you for coming by my blog. :)

Kay said...

Done! Now what??? :)

DEZMOND said...

this was stunningly profound, inspirational, seductive and mesmerizing, Ed!

DEZMOND said...

and yes, I forgot to answer your question - your aura would probably be dark violet or possibly dark emerald ;)

Brian Miller said...

smiles. a great reflection to start the day...some days it is hard to accept the gift...but the ood news is that it is always there waiting for me to be ready...

Deidra said...

After I read each line I thought, "That's my favorite, right there!" And then I'd read the next line. For the purpose of this comment I choose this: it is not a gift unless you accept it.

It was fun hanging out with you yesterday. Thanks so much for pitching your tent there with us for the day!

Mama Zen said...

Oh, I love this. Truly.

Love, Evolution, and Resilience said...

Become worthy. That's what I'm working on.

LadyFi said...

Ah - so beautiful and inspiring! Love the line where you say we have to accept life, the gift.

Su-sieee! Mac said...

Lovely, Ed. This speaks very much to that gal in me of long time ago. I like to think that she has become. Thank you for another delightful gift.

Claudia said...

Yes - gifts have no expiration date - so good - thanks for reminding us!

SoccerMom said...

Love it!
I love how you make me think.

Ed Pilolla said...

hear mum roar, thanks for stopping by. i suppose there are worse sentiments to kick off the day:)

french fancy, i added 'darling' at the last possible moment. i liked its playfulness. fun seems like an important element of any lesson.

jayne, the interpretive dance was another playful element i liked. ultimately, i'm talking about the concept of a ritual or a right of passage. progression seems to be accompanied by both. i think we have to really alert, maybe convince our higher selves and the universe that we are serious about what we want, want to become.

kay, i don't know! keep on becoming? see more clearly what brings us peace? i'd like to know what you see from your high perch. if we've done the dance, if we've gone through a right of passage, we don't come out the same. we might have to allow ourselves some time to settle and see what we and the universe have done to ourselves through this right of passage. maybe it's time for self-admiration, self-respect. maybe these things help make us more worthy. maybe.

dezmond, thank you so much. i liked the art best of all. i'm so happy to make a connection with you.

brian, you say the gifts are there waiting for us to be ready. i dig it. it's almost as if we have to know how to accept these gifts, as if we have to develop tools of understanding and appreciation maybe.

deidra, my persian poet buddy hafiz says: 'burglars hear alarm bells inside His gifts and run.' sometimes His gifts are indeed scary. be careful what you ask for. it might be dropped in your lap momentarily.

mama zen, gracias!

love, evolution and resilience, we're all working on it. we're all journeying. we're all becoming. it's more fun doing it together anyway:)

lady fi, i wonder whether we refuse the gifts, run from them, or whether we even see them at all. i mean, if we see a divine gift as it is, i have a feeling we snatch it up, or accept it as the case may be.

su-sieee! mac, the junctions seem to become more clear as we build distance from them, or, as bob marley said, 'the stages they put us through.'

claudia, thanks for visiting. sometimes opportunities come and go, but news ones are always coming. the fact is, the universe knows far better than we do what it is that we want.

soccermom, thanks. sometimes i'd rather feel than think. sometimes i feel like my brain just gets in the way. some people would say it often does:)

Tori said...

"This lover loves different." I love this line. Different is good. :)

Lynn said...

I love the ending line. You are worthy to accept the gifts the universe presents to you. Resonates deeply with me. And loved your comment on my writing blog. Thanks!

Wanderlust said...

Only the names and faces change - especially yours. Love that!

Ed Pilolla said...

tori, to progress (or regress, i guess) we must become different in some meaningful ways. different is good.

lynn, worthiness is a big theme of my life journey. lots of people too, i believe.

wanderlust, i think others must change as we ourselves change. it's not just our vision that changes them. there's an energetic shift too, seems like. the world tilts. change is profound.

French Fancy said...

...and I bet having added it (the 'darling') you couldn't imagine it not being there. When I read it aloud I said the 'darling' in a sardonic sort of way, not very friendly. It works like that too.

Alexandra said...

Awesome. There is something mesmerizing about your writing, Ed. Thanks for sharing these intimate moments.

Piedmont Writer said...

Because I am different.

This is such a powerful line. It speaks volumes.

I know the next time I fall in love will be different because I'm not the same as I was before. So much better.

Clarity said...

Thank you for sweet comment. It summed it up poetically and truthfully.

GYPSYWOMAN said...

the being different lines of your piece, ed - i remember having said those almost identical words to someone i'd just met [in this life] several years ago - we were together for several more years before i left - he was different - and he was my gift from the universe -

beautiful piece! love it!

GYPSYWOMAN said...

oh, and did i mention i was different because of him - i was me again -

Ed Pilolla said...

french fancy, that's really interesting that 'darling' sounded sardonic. i didn't mean it that way at all. i have to watch my last-moment additions and subtractions. some are good, some aren't. i have a class clown in me and sometimes he's gold and sometimes he just fucks shit up.

alexandra, thank you!

piedmont writer, for me, the journey of my life is to change, to progress. it's about growing up. it's about losing fear through confronting it. i'll always be the guy i used to be in some ways, and others i never will be again. i'm blessed.

clarity, thanks!

gypsywoman, i love what you said: i was me again. someone much smarter than me told me once that true love is experiencing self-love through another. i feel like sometimes changing for the better is getting closer to who we really are, as you note. thanks for that.

Wine and Words said...

I don't think we can become worthy, as we already begin worthy. Each worthy of something, especially love. But I do believe that love changes as we change. The gift becomes a whole new experience, as when we were infants, and the wrapping was what drew us...playing with ribbons with little regard for the purchased piece. The older I get, the more I care less about worth and wrapping. A lover becomes far more an experience of mind connection first that tremors through the body unhindered.

TechnoBabe said...

This poem is so mature, in a good way. Lots of writing is cool, but nothing deep. This has substance.

Ed Pilolla said...

wine and words, i dig your perspective on the evolution of love. and though i agree we are all born worthy, that worth seems meaningless for those who don't know about it. for broken people who truly don't know how to see their own worth, it's a process of learning to see and accept that worth. for a lot of people, like me, it has taken most of my life to see and learn this. and i find myself reaffirming that discovery too.

technobabe, thanks for the sugar and for stopping by!

Phoenix said...

"The universe may give you a gift, but it is not a gift unless you accept it."

God yes. How many gifts have we turned down from the universe because we thought we wanted something else and so rejected it? And yet the funniest thing of all is that the universe will keep giving us those gifts - it never runs out, never takes back what it's offered us before. Unlimited opportunities to become what we were always meant to be.

Your poem was such a wonderful lift for my day :)

Teacher Mommy said...

Did you write this one for me?

I wish I could have read and imbibed and lived it years ago.

But then, perhaps I never would have received the gifts I have accepted now...

Lydia Kang said...

I'm trying! I'm trying!
Great affirmation to read after a long day's work.
Thank you.

I gave you a choice of a blog award over at my blog, btw. Your posts are wonderful.

Ed Pilolla said...

phoenix, unlimited opportunities to become what we were always meant to be. the universe does indeed keep giving us gifts-- and tests. hmmm, you're inspiring me here...

teacher mommy, the gifts do keep coming. even when i'm a shit to the universe (and i can be a brat), the gifts keep coming. i suppose we accept them when we're ready, as you note.

lydia kang, thanks so much! let's see if my technically challenged self can swing that award over here. we'll see:)

Ocean Girl said...

This is too much food for thought on my plate.

But I like that something about lover master thingy.

PS: YKW, my word verification is bedumb. May I ask for a new word.

GYPSYWOMAN said...

your friend was so right, i think - that true love is experiencing self-love through another - many many moons ago i was in one of those fantastical cosmic type relationships with someone and a friend of mine who worked for my friend said to me that she knew exactly why i was so madly passionately in love with paul and him with me - because we were in love with ourselves in each other - we were so much alike in so many ways and became more and more our true selves as we grew more and more together - i've never forgotten that, nor him -

so how are things on your coast this weekend?

James said...

Ed,

Equally nice to meecha :-) Synchronistically speaking, earlier today I walked by TechnoBabe's Blogging Mothership and saw the graphic to this post and slowed to look at it. "Beautiful graphic," I remember saying.

Beautiful mind at work here, too.

Ed Pilolla said...

ocean girl, thanks! too much for you? you embody modesty with that statement. and it is truly nothing more than a lover-master thingy.

gypsywoman, well, i'm blessed. i'm vacationing with my family in oahu. so the warm pacific is baptizing me with every swim. like i said, i'm blessed.

james, thanks so much. i love matching art with my pieces, even more than writing 'em. i'm weird that way, and i like being weird that way:)

James said...

Ed,

Have you seen Fractal Bargain Bin?

http://www.sgeier.net/fractals/indexe.php

Beautiful graphics maybe with your mind in mind.

Ed Pilolla said...

james, there are some amazing images in that gallery. thank you so much. even just browsing through a place like that is nourishment for the imagination. muchas gracias. have a fab weekend!

Gabriela Abalo said...

All we have to do is to be conscious of the change and embrace every aspect of it.

Poignant post.

loveNlight
Gabi

Roland D. Yeomans said...

The gifts we are blind to. The gifts we refuse. How we mourn them when we realize they were not there forever to choose. Roland

Graceful said...

I love this. Yours is the first post I am reading this morning -- a perfect way to start a Saturday.

thinkingtoohard13 said...

"Do the dance, darling. And become."
So this made me cry in my coffee. It's just so fucking gorgeous.
Thank you for this - for sharing your gift.

Ed Pilolla said...

gabriela abalo, it's true. i haven't always been present to the changes in my life. sometimes we surprise ourselves with our actions and see that changes have happened. other times we see our same actions again and again.

roland d. yeomans, thanks for stopping by. the universe is so generous and so cruel. yes, you are right. opportunities here now may not be here tomorrow. but new ones will come about.

graceful, thanks so much!

Ed Pilolla said...

thinkingtoohard, always wonderful to see you. thanks so much.
:)

kavisionz said...

This one hit totally me!! Beautifully worded, and excellently expressed!!!
Thanks for sharing..

Best Regards!

Ed Pilolla said...

kavisionz, thanks so much for stopping by.

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Wild Rose said...

Thank you for stopping by Ed and i love this post. We have to love ourselves enough to be able to accept others and the gifts that come our way. I see people i admire and i see a part of myself in them, the good side of me and as such i consider them gifts in my life, my family i see that as treasures that i was lucky to be blessed with.